I've been thinking a lot lately. About my life and my future and what my next steps need to be, I have been thinking so much that every time I do I get a little more overwhelmed with the options and ideas and alternatives for this or that.
I have chosen a pretty broad field of study. The broadest there is actually. I'm undeclared and no where close to figuring out specifics anytime soon. I feel like I spend hours and hours of my most current life researching and reading and dreaming of one career or the next. I spend my days dillywhacking around wondering if I should be a travel agent or a mental health therapist in the prison system or a commercial photographer, or a flight attendant, or occupational therapist or join the military or or or... It never ends. Tomorrow I'll be wondering if it would be nice to be a integrated market specialist or an EMT. I'm exhausted being in a constant state of unclarity.
I'm not really sure where this rant was going, but I just needed to rant it, and yell it out at the top of my lungs, to you, to the internet, to anyone who will listen....even at the sky to God asking for a hint at the direction I should be pursuing, just a tiny little sign pointing the way. Because right now all I feel is stress and pressure and anxiety and like I am lost in my own life.
